Updates on things..

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What's up? Sky's up! Haha. What a lame line for me at my age today to greet that way. So, how's everyone doing? I hope everyone is doing just fine. As for me, I'm doing great, my life goes as how it is supposed to be, bitter conflicts, sweet moments, sour challenges and spicy romance. Haha!

Things going so fast since my last post here. All in all, I'm gonna keep that as memories and life lessons.

There were 3-4 events happening since this blog was left in silence. In shaa Allah, I will share about those in the next few days.

And as for the kids.. They both are looking good, handsome and pretty. Hehe. And I'll tell you more about them later. Till then, I'm leaving you with their pictures..

Happy 1st Birthday Aisha! Her 1 year Journey.

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As some of you may know, we have such a joyful family moment when Aisha turns 1 year old. It's cliche to say that I can still feel the pain or it feels like yesterday when we were in the labour room waiting for her arrival. But, they are all true. Even when she turns 2, 3 or 20, I might say the same thing.

I really don't want to say goodbye to any of you people

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So, today marks the day that I will leave my favourite people at the office. This time around, I feel very difficult to say goodbye, especially when one has spent a long time inside a character or two or more, suffering and celebrating with them.

It is amazing how being in the office became fun when you all were around. Thank you for being a listener, a motivator and a good friend of mine. You all will be missed.

Cabaran membesarkan Irfan..

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In the previous post, I was saying 'kalau ada rezeki' I will share about our challenges in raising a child with disability and how we manage them physically, mentally and emotionally. But then, I thought, 'why should I delay?'. There is nothing to hide, no worries about others talking, because everyone knows about him and there are many other parents with disabled children who may search for parental stories and experience for their own motivation and preparation. Plus, saya pun seronok berkenalan dengan ramai orang baru. 

Aktiviti mingguan Irfan di Spa Terapi al-Fateh

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Haha! Again, I've been typing and deleting and type and delete and type for a thousand times already. I'm losing my writing skills I guess.  So, what's new for everyone? I hope everyone is having a great time. Setiap hari adalah hari baru untuk kita. Take a chill pill. 

Entry blog saya harini ibarat tribute buat Kak Ija, pengasas Spa Terapi al-Fateh sempena birthday dia beberapa hari lepas. Spa Terapi al-Fateh ni adalah re-branding daripada nama Pusat Stimulatherapy Klang. Untuk segala detail rawatan, lokasi, hari dan waktu operasi, temujanji dan macam-macam lagi boleh click link : Spa Terapi al-Fateh.

How is Syawal for you so far?

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Hari ke-4 Syawal, saya dah kerja. Tapi, untuk 3 hari pertama Syawal haritu puas juga beraya. How is Syawal for you so far? Hopefully it's awesome! Sebulan kita puasa, kita celebrate sikit lah raya.. Hihi..

Again, I would like to wish you all Selamat Hari Raya, mohon maaf zahir & batin.

Selamat hari raya!

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Esok raya! Esok raya!

Merungut dan terus merungut. Kenapa?

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Terlalu janggal untuk saya harini meluahkan rasa kesal tentang isu semasa. Sebab takut kena bash sebenarnya. Serius takut. Kepenggunaan bahasa yang kadang-kadang rasa nak nangis bila baca. Tak termasuk makian dan cacian. Belum juga diambil kira perkataan-perkataan kiasan yang kasar. 

Tapi, harini, saya sangat kecewa. Terutama untuk para belia remaja, Melayu khususnya. Lama sebenarnya tangan saya menari atas keyboard ni. Tak tau bagaimana harus saya luahkan, bimbang disalah tafsir. Terutamanya apabila isu ini melibatkan luahan hati 'Zahra'.

Jadi ibu je, bukan Pelumba..

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Seringkali isu 'motherhood contest' dibangkitkan. Terutamanya buat ibu-ibu baru. Tentunya saya tak terkecuali dengan situasi macam ni, samada secara langsung atau pun tak.

Mengecewakan bila situasi macam ni berlaku. Kalau dulu.. Zaman nenek dan mak kita, motherhood contest ni kita boleh dengar kalau berjumpa time raya ke, family gathering ke, berkunjung ke rumah orang ke.. Ibaratnya tak lah hari-hari pun terkesan dengan hal macam ni..

Tapi~~~

Sekarang ni, facebook, instagram, twitter dan segala social media network penuh dengan situasi motherhood contest ni.. termasuklah bila ber'gathering'. We can't change what people wants to say or think. But, we can just be a MOTHER..

One of the thing that I didn't know about him before..

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Lama sangat tak update blog. Hampir sebulan, sampaikan dah separuh Ramadhan berlalu. I hope it is still not too late for me to wish you all Salam ramadhan! How's Ramadhan so far? Hopefully, all is well.

Story of the day.. It's about a conversation between my husband and I..
Siapa sangka, dah nak 4 tahun kahwin ada je lagi hal yang saya tak tahu pasal dia. Yang paling saya tak sangka, saya tak tahu dia suka lagu genre apa. Simple je walhal benda tu. Tapi tak tau!!!!!! *sigh

Accepting Rejection Gracefully

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Rejection is tough to handle, a bitter antibiotic to swallow, a drowner tank and just make your life goes blah! You get the picture right? I believe that everyone may experience it in a different form of rejection. We all have. Trust me. Even with my blog, as harmless as it is, I sometimes receive comments that they reject things / contents I've posted. And my first time experience, I will dwell on the anger and posting my frustration post afterwards. I laughed at myself back then! Hahaha!

To feel fully content is to be in love

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More often in life, we've been continuously searching for our inner self. Truth to be told, graduated with honoured degree, employed with a high pay job, owned an expensive car, changing phones regularly and chilling in a high-class coffee house make us feel fulfilled and content on the outside, but for some reasons we have yet to feel content in ourselves.

Keep calm and take a chill pill with Mo.Bra

Manjakan anak boleh ke?

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Serius cepat masa berlalu sekarang ni. Sedar macam tak je Aisha dah nak masuk 9 bulan. Setiap hari tengok dia membesar dengan perangai yang macam-macam tu, tercalit rasa seronok. Sampaikan kadang tu, macam tak percaya. Sebab diberi peluang untuk rasa pengalaman pembesaran anak normal, yang seiring dengan 'milestone' harus secara medikal nya. Syukur, sebab atas nikmat apa lagi yang kita nak dustakan. 

Introducing Mo.Bra

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Women! How complex a woman can be? I believe only woman understands other women. We are so particular of choosing the right outfit at the right time for the right person. Even spending your days at home can be so stressful because of it is so hard to start your day when you can't find the right shirt and comfy pants to wear throughout the day.

This is for you. Congratulations love!

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This post is specially dedicated to my bestfriend, my husband. I have congratulate him in person, but since writing is my thing, I would like to write this for you. 

Ke Krabi. Days well spent.

*Serius panjang post ni. 

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I think I've covered enough of our experience in flight with babies to and from Krabi the other day. And received some other suggestions by mommies. And one of them is to have a travel logbook for babies. You know.. Macam bila kita bercinta ada simpan album resit, tiket wayang, gambar la apa semua.. Interesting gilaaa!!

So, the trip to Krabi has been planned since.. erm.. Last year in November-December. Involving me and my uni friends. All of us are married and have kids which of course are also joining the trip. Some of us, decided to bring along our parents and relatives.

Ke Krabi. In flight dengan babies..

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Percutian melibatkan anak-anak selalunya mencabar. That was what I heard before we went to Krabi! Dalam hati, I am being denial and assured that the kids will behave as what and how I am thinking they will and surprisingly, they are!

Anyway, saya, family & kawan-kawan bercuti ke Krabi masa cuti hari pekerja 1 Mei haritu. Subhanallah, cantiknya Krabi dan nak pergi lagi kalau ada rezeki. Tapi saya nak cerita perihal kami anak-beranak dalam flight. Such an interesting experience since this is the babies' first time in flight. Eh, bukan dorang je.. Husband pun first time!! Hahaha.

why so serious????

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Harini nak share sikit. Pernah masa I plan nak pergi Langkawi haritu, rasa macam leceh sangat nak cari hotel sebab ada yang overbudget la, ada yang murah tapi hotel macam jauh tak selesa semua. Lepas tu, I baca cerita-cerita blogger lain, ramai yang cadangkan, kalau nak pergi jalan-jalan atau holiday lebih baik cari homestay! Katanya, lebih murah, boleh bawa segerombolan keluarga, pastu sumbat satu rumah. And indeed, all of above is true.  

So, sekarang kalau jalan-jalan, I try cari homestay dulu. Sebab kebanyakannya menawarkan penginapan yang selesa, harga pun memuaskan serta cukup segala keperluan. 

Sebab tu, harini I nak share satu homestay yang best di Putrajaya, dikenali sebagai D'Armonia Homestay Putrajaya. 

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Lissencephaly and Muhammad Irfan

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Everytime, whenever I tried to post about Irfan's health condition, it took me a while to write then delete the post and write again. It was just so hard for me. I'm worried if by sharing about Irfan, people may think that I'm in need of symphaty or not being redha with his condition.

But seriously, my intention is to share my experience raising a child with lissencephaly and get connected with new people throughout the world. Please, don't judge me from my writing.

Already April? Let's see how March has treated us..

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Tak dapat peluang pun nak update aktiviti kami in March. *sigh BUT! In short, I'm seriously deeply in love with March because March has treated me and family so well. *dramasangat

One of our best moments in March is obviously the weekend that we spent at The Kabin, Jeram. Ya Allah, teori The Kabin simple je, yet the ambiance still memukau. Get me? 

Actually, I heard about The Kabin since last year in November from my colleague. I tengok je website The Kabin terus macam 'wooooaaaahhhhh'. And right away, I quickly planned when to go there. From there I decided to celebrate my parents and husband's birthday at The Kabin.

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Kenapa si dia tak tolong jaga anak-anak

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Rasa stress tak bila orang lain semua cerita perihal si dia yang rajin babysitting anak-anak, dan dorang boleh luangkan masa bersendirian kat shopping mall atau cafe tapi tidak kita? Saya share sikit harini, nape si dia tak nak tolong jaga anak-anak.

His kind of patience that I adore so much.

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Patience is a very subjective topic to be talked about. Everyone (surely) has different opinions (and arguments of course!) with regards to the limit of patience that someone should hold. 

Personally, I do believe that as a human we should not set a limit of patience, where everyone must have the nature of sabr / patience. Unfortunately, I do have my limits but at present I am trying to improve my sabr. 

However, there is someone, someone that lived with me and has the nature of sabr. And he is my husband. 

He, can stand forever accompanying me shopping eventhough he is not buying anything for himself. 

He, will not be angry when he finds me sleeping while he is taking care of our babies eventhough he is tired.

He, can wait for my long-hours of eating time eventhough he is hungry as well.

He, can just listen to my nagging and my emotional outbursts (for hours at times) but still can make me smile after that.

And more to mention..

Sometimes, I don't understand how he can tolerate with all those and can still stay calm and be cool, and even can make me smile. Because in my opinion, it's the littlest things that can always make people feel mad, angry and dissatisfied when they are tired and unrest. 

Well, another person I know that have this nature of sabr, is my Dad. And someone has told me that, to find a husband, you should find someone like your father. And, I think I nailed it. Hiks.

Tips ambil gambar babies

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Ambil gambar budak-budak memang sangat addictive. I mean, even professional photographers do like taking pictures of newborn and children. However, capturing them in great moment always and will forever be a challenge. But mommies, not to worry, challenge accepted!!

But yes! Akan sentiasa ada teknik dan tips nak ambil gambar budak-budak ni. Mana kan tidak, setiap 1 saat, daripada tadi senyum, tiba-tiba dah menangis, daripada meniarap dah terlentang. Fuhhh!!

Oleh tu, jom kita ramai-ramai cuba tips ni, dan dapatkan moment terbaik mereka..

PAKAIKAN BAJU SMART-CANTIK SENTIASA

Tak kira lah hari tersebut akan duduk kat rumah seharian atau akan keluar berjalan-jalan, pakaikan saja baju yang bergaya dan cantik. Sebab bila dah pakai baju cantik ni, senang, datang je moment tu, terus snap!

KENAL PASTI WAKTU-WAKTU MOOD 'BAIK'

Budak-budak sentiasa dengan mood swing dia. Tapi akan sentiasa ada saat yang mereka akan relax dan menggembirakan hati. Contohnya bila bangun dari tidur atau selepas makan ataupun selepas mandi. Bila mereka senang hati, senang nak get into the mood, time tu, terus snap!

SENTIASA ADA PORTABLE MAINAN 

Toys boleh daripada yang ada music atau yang berwarna-warni atau kombinasi keduanya. Mulakan dulu sesi bersama mainan, sampai lah fokus mereka tertumpu pada mainan tu. Pastikan bawa je kemana-mana mainan, sebab bila sampai je fokus budak-budak ni, terus snap!

KAMERA KENA ADA DI MANA-MANA

Jangan lah sesekali kamera tertinggal atas meja ke dapur ke dalam kereta ke. Kat mana sahaja, bawa! Sebab, kat mana-mana pun boleh terus snap! 

Haaa.. Senang tak? 4 tips mudah ni je saya selalu buat bila nak ambil gambar Irfan & Aisha. Antaranya, sesi 'pengambaran' hari Ahad haritu.. Hihi..

SELAMAT MENCUBA!!

Tak boleh 'brain' benda macam ni.

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While preparing Aisha's milk earlier this morning, scrolling my instagram timeline, I saw a post from Nora Danish (below picture). You see.. Anything or everything that someone post about children just make my heart pounding hard. I just know, this must be about....

Child abuse!

I can't imagine how could someone become so violent towards that tiny-cute little baby. Come on people! Look at their eyes, and see them through your heart, you can only see happiness. Don't you?

Please friends, family, relatives or whoever reading this. Have a heart towards children. If you don't have one, develop one. They don't deserve to have bruises, bleeding nose or whatever more inhumanity acts. 

Please.. Don't do this to them.. Please..

She is 4 months old today. Let's see where she is now..

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Time flies so fast! I still can feel the excitement and of course the pain in labour. And today Aisha is 4 months old. And of course, I have been taking lots of pictures and videos of her because I believe that the way she looks and acts today will be very different tomorrow, next week, and next month. 

So.. How is she doing today?

She now moves a lot more than before. She loves to do cycling movement with her legs and her kicks are quite hard at times. She has started to roll over from her back to her front and lift her head at her 3 months (we cheered during her first roll over). And today, since she is now expert at that, she will do it every time we put her down (it is challenging nowadays to put her on cloth because she always wants to roll over. sigh!)

She will put everything that is in her hand into her mouth, (especially Embun, her favourite teddy). Otherwise, since we don't give her a pacifier, she will put both of her hands into her mouth. She can laugh and giggle, of course! The funny part is that she will start babbling before she falls asleep. She will make a sound like "aahh.. gaaahh.." and anyone that is holding her at that time must respond to her, only then she can sleep happily. Hahaha!

Sooo cute isn't she? 

gambar ni masa Aisha berjaya roll over untuk kali ke 3, a month ago.

hiks.

His recent emotional development that caught our attention

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Still remember my beautifully written story of our child from heaven, Irfan? "Muhammad Irfan, a story of a beautiful boy of us.." Just a quick recap for those who still do not know of his health condition, Irfan was first diagnosed with microcephaly (a rare neurological condition in which an infant's head is significantly smaller than the heads of other children of the same age of his). After a year, he was then confirmed with lissencephaly (which his brain does not fold properly, a cause of having microcephaly). And so, because of the condition, his growth development is delayed, including his emotional development. 

But! Just recently, he has been showing reactions towards voices which we believe that his emotions has developed and ready to show them off!! Honestly, I am very thrilled with his new development! Why not?? It's huge!! Betul tak?? 

Seeing him smiling and giggle is considered now as a norm. He can already smile and giggle since a year ago. But for the past few days, he started to show how sad he is when we raised our voices. Take note please, we did not shout at him or shout towards one another. It was just during that particular time, my husband was calling for me from the toilet (and I was at the living room) with a loud voice while holding him. Ya Allah. He made that very funny sad face, and a second after he started crying, loud one! Haha! And it has happened 3 times. 

From that incident, we never raised our voices anymore. Because looking at him with that sad face really touched my heart. I just don't want him to feel sad, not anymore. At the same time, I am so happy to witness the progress. 

To have a pure heart is my 2015 life goal..

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2015 kini dah menyapa. It has been 26 years I'm breathing freely. But I don't feel I'm getting enough of knowledge, of experience and of everything! 

Naaa.. Here comes my philosophy mood.. 

To be honest, I don't feel at peace yesterday. And so, I ask for a friend's help yesterday. Entah kenapa. tapi dia dah jadi my heart advisor sejak sekolah lagi. Ya Allah, I'm so thankful to have her as a friend. Susah nak dapat seorang yang macam ni tau.

To cut everything short, I would say that yesterday's conversation is about heart. Hati yang suci, which at this second, I don't think I have one. Definisi hati yang suci yang paling sesuai untuk saya ialah antaranya redha dan bersyukur. 

I honestly admit that there are times when I look at someone's life, I was like 'Oh, seronoknya jadi macam dia.. Kalaulah....' Astaghfirullahalazim. I am guilty and I have sinned. Sebab bila saya dah 'kalau', maka saya tak redha dan bersyukur! 

And so, I repent for the things that I've done wrong. Betapa kerdilnya hamba Allah ni, terlalu menimbun dosa sehingga terasa diri ini tak layak ke syurga-Nya. Lantas hati ini bernekad untuk melangkah ke proses penyucian hati. Subhanallah. Walau hanya dengan niat, ia merubah segala. 

In shaa Allah, if Allah wills it. I want to be a better person, a better wife, a better mom, a better child, a better friend and a better muslim. What I have said or done yesterday, or a day before yesterday, or last month, last 3 months, last year, or last 3 years, that have hurt someone's feelings, I am sorry. Today is a new day for me. And I will get things right. Slowly but surely. In shaa Allah. 

She gave me this yesterday. And alhamdulillah, I think I'm getting better. Thank you..